Sunday Morning Pre-Vandana
Listened to an interview by Krista Tippett with Richard Mouw and heard the line of his, referring to G.K. Chesterton, “It’s important to not have false gods but also to not have false demons.”
This hit me very hard. Shook me. Made me well up with emotion, not open tearful and I think the undercurrent of my grouped general sadness combined with dissatisfaction just became very close to my surface.
I will tidy up the place here after I return from my painting session at Vandana, I adhere to an attention, a yearning for focus.
These times are so lonely for me, and yet I am not going to be distracted this morning.
I miss performing, I have no other real choice but to concentrate on patience and relaxing attention to things I have no control over.
I am not laying these lines about sadness out there to collect sympathetic responses and commentary. It is what it is and at timees I cannot stand it.
